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Goals 2011 - SOT

2011-03-17T22:17:00.004+08:00

Looking at the last post, I forgot to update my readers, that I am already in SOT.. finishing the 2nd week tomorrow. Praise the LORD! :) It's been awesome.. encounters and increase a lot in understanding of the Word.

One goal down but it leads to another - Graduate from SOT ! Aug 2011! :)

Next Goal is my taiwan trip.. was my unfulfilled goal last year so I'm hoping to make it possible this year or early next year ! Got to learn to enjoy life before it's too late. 我要出国旅行-台湾！

2010-11-19T11:24:00.003+08:00

God make it possible for me to go for SOT next year ! PLEASE.
Financial & parents.. Let nothing hinder please....

Friends, if you are reading this, pray for me !

2010-08-08T19:47:00.002+08:00

Did this as an idea for his webbie and boyfriend's so lousy, he doesn't like it... :(

2010-08-04T23:49:00.005+08:00

I have been having this food for the past month. And really think it's causing me to become fatter day by day. My Tenant, Aunty Mei Yun, she's been making 饺子to sell. Initially, I get to eat them every 1 week. and i get like 10 of them each time..

Now, she actually use the same dough and ingredients to make this 烧饼 and fry it. And I get to eat this every 2 to 3 days.

Sometimes I think it's getting quite scary, but good thing - she puts different ingredients inside each time she cook.

Since I'm talking about tenant, I want to thank God for blessing me with good tenants that don't only pay rent on time, they also are nice quiet people to live with. Although at times, im not quite use to staying with strangers, but it's been a pleasant experience so far. not too much of trouble. :)

2010-07-25T10:06:00.005+08:00

super long since i last blog.. but i need to share the joy ~ :)

ytd's trip to Universal Studio Singapore really cheered me up (other than the headache that refuse to go away). Even though the day could have been better with love, i still had fun! Feel like a kid when im there ~

the sweet camarel popcorn is GREAT! :) shall aim for the BIG bucket (6.5 Gallons) the next time ! =p

Taking pics, having fun and setting my burdens aside is so my kind of life. Happy happy day with N20!

Thanks guys. Loves.

2010-03-08T18:49:00.003+08:00

was reading the news online. it's jack neo's news all over the place !

haiyaya! :( really sad when i hear this kinda thing. like why does it have to happen !

the family has to move, even neighbors are affected.

sometimes the decisions you make really affects people around you.

but i'll pray for him and his family. i know that's really what they need most.

well, that's also the only thing that we as fellow brothers and sisters in Christ can do for him.

jia you bah.. it's not going to be easy. but believe that God can bring you through.

2010-03-07T14:43:00.007+08:00

this weekend is a super exciting weekend..

It's our pledging weekend. and the best part is that it is also the announcement of our new church location.

Yupyup! As many have heard, it's also already on the news.....

City Harvest is now the co-owner of Suntec ! :)

God is indeed awesome and we will never be able to out give him.

We're shifting in next year (March 2011) and i am totally excited ! :)

I'm so glad to be part this, building God a magnificent house is such a privilege.

Well, heard the news before service because the news travelled from Jurong West to Expo before our service started, that's by the power of the telecomm and the internet ! When receiving the news, didn't get to sit together with the CG but rejoiced together with the mummy and children in the nursery. The 1st scene was the Kids@play area. How excited the Mums were.. One even exclaimed "it's every mummy's dream". :) those kids in the room are going to be the one that is going to enjoy that big play area! Also looking forward to our own 12000 seater audi, all the meeting rooms and place for fellowship. :)

God fulfilled our prayer, we've got a land in the marketplace.

Now, we got to work to fulfill our pledges to Him. Two weeks ago, received the amount, worked out the breakdown. and finally wrote the amount and pledged last night.

Till now, still don't know how to complete it. but since God helped me the last two arise and build, i believe He will do it again for me this time round. If He can give us such an awesome location ! He can help me fulfill my pledge amount. :)

For your read: straitstimes

I'm happy this weekend. Really am ! the only down side is that boyfriend's not around to rejoice together with us ! well, he does make a difference.. at least to me ! miss you, bi !

2010-03-02T15:20:00.003+08:00

Thank God for the pay increment.

Just paid all my tithes and bills, gave jiapei her allowance.
now my balance is low again ! lol.
but im happy!! because of my increment, jiapei can have her increment too. hopefully with this, i dun have to give her extra money anymore !

I'm going to manage my finances well. Building fund is here ! Go go go !

2010-02-25T22:15:00.003+08:00

been so busy up and down, upside down !

So much things to do.. but im glad i have Audrey to help me!

Boss hired a new staff to help me clear some workload. :)

Mummy's so glad that boss is willing to teach me new stuff.

hope i really can handle ya..

After a break, i got to also get back on track to do things that i should be doing. Need to get back the stamina le.

hmmm.. So sorry baobei. i haven even got the time to bring you out for your birthday dinner and your present is still sitting in my room. dui bu qi ar ! :(

2010-02-16T22:20:00.003+08:00

weee ~ almost 4 days here in brunei already. enjoying myself so far. :)
although sg can be a more fun place to be at, but there's so much more visitation for me here than in sg. can have firecrackers here too. well , posted up all the pics in facebook already. quite lazy to put it up here. expecting more pictures to be up in fb from my cousin and aunts.

well.. ask me how have it been since the last time i blog.. CNY this year didn't spell family reunion to me, but guess im quite used to it although praying for the better. Im still hanging on to Dr Niko's message that this year will be a year of restoration. Will continue trusting in God.

holiday's almost over. will be back in sg by tomorrow night. kinda happy yet unwilling. quite ample rest and i guess im ready to be back for the fast pace an hectic life ya.. haha.

Wishing everybody a ROARING TIGER YEAR ! :)

Birthday Part 1 with FUNs

2009-11-16T22:50:00.002+08:00

Hmm, here comes my very 1st post.
I know im super late but, here it goes..

This is suppose to be on the 7th of Nov (Saturday)
In the beginning of the year i thought to myself that i must hold a big party for my 21st birthday and make sure mama and didi comes along. but since papa decide to leave, i dropped the idea and didn't feel like having the celebration at all.

During mel and mei's birthday chalet, nicole and willie suggested that I hold something small at home. well nicole says that she misses coming to my house. haha ! yea, lots of memories here and yup.. I held a steamboat dinner at home with just FUNs. Just a simple gathering to catch up and Thank God it's a successful one. We caught up A LOT!! haha. spent our night talking talking talking!! hehe. :)

I wanna thank you guys for allowing me to be a part of your lives, that you guys bothered to turn up even though it's been a long while.
I must say again... I LOVE THE BOOK!! It's indeed a COMPILATION OF OUR MEMORIES. :)
I know it was meant to be a gift 3 years ago, but to me, it's super lovely! (haven taken a pic of the book yet)

Here comes some pictures taken with my cammy that day:

P.S: i still can't get over the fact that baobei really didn't turn up !

2009-11-05T22:25:00.002+08:00

ANGRY WITH MY BOYFRIEND !

1) Told me to look for a new boyfriend so that the new boyfriend can plan for my birthday and so that Bi don't need to do anything.. :(

2) Ask me don't call him for no reason! :(

Somebody tell my boyfriend to wake up his lousy idea please !

2009-10-29T22:11:00.001+08:00

hmmm. so much of people asking me what i want for my birthday.
i got to start thinking.

feel like getting myself something for my one and only 21st.. :)
hmmmm......
today headache..
so can't think of anything. shall start my present hunt soon.

2009-10-24T02:22:00.004+08:00

Was reading through my birthday post again..

18th and 19th was the best man.
20th was weird? because i was at home, on mc.. haha..
lets hope 21st is gona be awesome! im excited about it although there's no solid plans..

Just a gentle reminder to my two best friends:
Boyfriend: Kaiser Shen Bibi!
Girl-Friend: Mabel Foo baobei !
please remember my love letter.
The two of you can forget everything, but please send me my love letter !
im excited to read them. hehe..

2009-10-24T02:01:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy buzz ~
at home, at work, at church.
im so occupied..
im excited about shifting out, i know there's much more responsibility and a big budget needed.
but i shall break through those difficulties and find my mei mei and i a real place called home.

on the random note, im pushing myself to my limits. let's see how far i can stretch.. :)
God knows my limits and I will trust in Him.

i've never shifted house in my life.
and i don't know how to go about doing it. but im taking it a step at a time..
i've never rented out a house
and i don't know how it feels like to stay with outsiders.. but im gona do it right..

doing up the house is going to be exciting, but needs lotsa funds, but we'll do it the budget way..
the most exciting part is, im gona set a little cozy corner in the bedroom and make that my mini tent. and im super excited about that..

i still miss you baby..
how come im still not used to you being so uncontactable during ur field camps even though you've been through it so many times.. hmmm.

2009-10-12T11:56:00.002+08:00

21st birthday's approaching in less than 1 month.

Normally by this time, people would know how their celebration is going to be like and trying to firm up the guest list.

but! till now i still have yet to have a clue of what is the celebration is going to be like.

- don't dare to think

- don't know what to do

- no more leave to take (though i know nice james won't mind if i request for it)

What is for sure is the OPM at the end of the day.

Simple wishlist:

a cheerful day, a simple dinner (at least with bf)

a blessed 21st year (there's lots of challenges coming)

We're a Family???? are we?

2009-10-09T18:35:00.002+08:00

I can't help..

I've lost all faith in what's called a FAMILY!

Launched MI and Dorison

2009-10-06T15:51:00.003+08:00

oh ! !

been long since i logged into blogger!

Just logged in to enable the feeds so that James and Adriel can use it for the presentation tomorrow.

Shun bian update a bit. hehe..

I am happy..

because we've launched two sites and completed 3 trainings...

all these were pending because of my trip to brunei.

check them out !

http://www.millenniainstitute.edu.sg/

http://dorison.travel/

Jiawen's sneezing since sunday..

Bi's reaction: Now you know how I feel when I always wanna sneeze.

Jiawen's Angry !

2009-09-20T21:28:00.006+08:00

i still am upset.

my status was just:
"Im caught in between. what should i do? go back to brunei to acc mum and miss bf's 21st birthday? or shorter time spend with mum?"

Which freaking line says that i don't wanna come back to brunei because of bf's 21st birthday. i guess people do have some problem with their english.. or they just always think that im not the kinda good girl..

I still dun believe it man. i got reprimanded for not wanting to come back to brunei because of that status.. when i willing cleared ALL my leave of the year, spend the tickets and MISS MY 3rd Anni (this is like 10x more impt that bf's birthday) to come back and spend a long 2 weeks here.

well, should i get use to it? because in their eyes im never good enough.
Not academically, financially, not my character, not my behaviour..
and im damn tired of being compared with their children..
because their own kids aint not that good!
sometimes i feel like spilling all out.
and FIY - Money DOES NOT make the world go round..
damn...

stop blaming my parents for "letting" me be a Christian.
because it's pretty much MY choice, MY faith, MY belief..
And i'll NOT let go of it.

More capacity please God.

2009-09-16T13:52:00.003+08:00

I think i will go crazy soon.
but i have to be strong.
and i have to be stronger than another other one in this family.
because i clearly know they all need my support.

In sg, I can choose to run away from everything and just pray to God that some miracle will hapeen so that my family will reconcile without the need to put in any effort. I can pretend that all is good just because on the outside, it looks good.

but now in bn, i have to face it all. do counseling, show my siblings the way to face it. think of the right stuff to say. think of the next step to take. think of the future. think of the finance. think of the responsiblilty to take in future!!!!
ROARS!

i hate it.
im so upset..
this is definately part of God's plan...
but when is the " 雨过天晴" going to come !!!!!

Malay Google in a Malay Country..

2009-09-14T10:13:00.004+08:00

oh MAn! my google turned malay ! lol.
it auto detected my location - brunei.
and my gmail, google and blogger turned malay!!!!

well, jiawen's doing good in brunei.
but there's more to come, more to face.

im eating a lot here.
Aunt brought us out for dinner for the past two nites.
Breakfast, lunch, tea time, dinner, supper.
i never missed a single meal since the day i came.
i've gained 1kg since the last time i weighed at bi's place (about 2 weeks ago?). =x
Shared about 8pizzas and about 4 or 5 pastas with 11 people for dinner last night.
hoho.. my love's gona dump me soon.

on the healthier side -
mummy has lots of fruits.
aunts bought her lots of oranges..
cuz mummy needs lots of vitamin c.
but im stealing them. haha.
There's grape, plum, ORANGES, MANGOES, DURIANS~!
Love fruits !

Had youtiao for breakfast this morning.
And im gettting mummy's chicken soup for lunch later.
yumyumyum!

Peace in the Family

2009-09-01T23:55:00.005+08:00

Didn't manage to get a good sleep last night.

woke up in the middle of the night at least 3 times.

either to the toilet, or to switch on the fan, or just kept wide awake lying on bed.

I don't know what's wrong.

I remember I woke up at 445am, wide awake.

and I didn't know what to do.. I felt so unsettled.

Prayed for mummy's op that was earlier today.

Prayed for the logistics of Bi's birthday.

still i didn't feel good. Had to sit up and focused praying.

Prayed for mum till i felt better before i could get back to sleep.

the last time I saw the time was about 6am.

Nobody was with mummy when she had to stay in the hospital.

Nobody was with mummy when she went for the op.

Nobody was there to support her pain.

I believe the pain in her heart isn't any lesser than the pain caused by the op.

God bring peace and grace to mum.

God bring love and joy to mum.

Nobody is looking after didi.

Nobody is accompanying him study.

Nobody to support him through his Exams and he has to worry for mum that's in the hospital.

I pray for forgiveness in the house..

I pray for mercy and grace.

God bring reconciliation to my family..

I pray with all my heart.

I cry to you for a happy family again..

ALL shall be saved in Jesus name.

I pray for peace and better sleep tonight.

Edmund's Post Birthday celebration. :)

2009-08-11T15:25:00.004+08:00

Althought I did yearn for one, but I didn't have much rest during the long weekends.
Busy at church, catching up with FUNs, spending time with boyfriend..

Went to watch UP. i realise how long it has been since i last watched movie with my friends.
Met up with funs.. it was a small gathering but we're happy as ever.
over at Bi's place, keanu was like my play mate. lol. so much fun with him around.

Here's the pics!

Post Edmund's Birthday Celebration with FUNs

Forget!!!

2009-08-02T00:21:00.005+08:00

God give me the ability for forget please.
too much anger is causing me pain.
i pray for a better today.

would you let me feel loved again.
i wanna be a girlfriend.
i want to be dote on.
i want to be yearned.
i want to be needed.
but I have none of the above..

I WANNA REWIND YESTERDAY!
Can we start over again? hais..

BLAH!

2009-07-30T13:06:00.005+08:00

Jiawen is very very angry with some people.
don't understand what are they thinking about.
AND I JUST CAN'T WORK THEIR WAY!
damn!

If you really want to get over it then stop mentioning it.
i wish you can just pretend all didn't happen.
stop telling her about it and cause so much trouble.
it's sometimes a blessing "not to know"

Love Jesus

2009-07-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

strong is OUR love.
Your joy, be my strength.
Hearing from You, provides the greatest assurance ever.
Thank you.. for all your goodness. :)

headache...

2009-07-18T13:55:00.002+08:00

having a bad bad headache..
frequent headache's back.. hais.
stress? lack of sleep? i really dunno..
haven got any idea where this headache come from.

2009-07-09T23:30:00.004+08:00

Bring me to the next level God. I think im ready, but you know best ! :)
I think i've greater capacity to take in more.
Thank God for helping me through.
Although work's been busy, but i think i still can take it with the strength from God.
It's so true.. What you think will determine how much you can do.
if you start changing your thinking.. and believe YOU CAN DO IT!
you will be able to do it..

relationship wise, i thought we were dead, but i kept believing in us, and now see clear improvement between our conversations. lets work together darling. we can and we will do it ! Aim as far as possible. jia you !

workplace wise, i thought im gona faint real soon with all the piling work. i thought it was too much for me to handle.. i thought im gona screw so many things.. but still i manage be a value add to my workplace. my next aim is to make a difference. jia you !

family.. it was broken. and i thought it's just too difficult to reconcile.. but what's difficult for God.. i see improvement.. Just 2 more harder nut to crack.. all will be fine. I pray for complete reconciliation.

ministry wise... hmmm ~ im still trying hard here. i lost my comm skills between friends. so blocked out from social life and my Bi really doesn't want that to happen in my life. im trying hard. to do well in this area of my life. And im slowly improving. I will do a lot better. :)

2009-07-05T00:42:00.004+08:00

pardon me !
i've been too busy to blog man!
and i totally know ! that my blog is decaying !

hmmmmmm ~
so tired ! and i think i need some rest . heh!
but it's been fruitful.
i like being helpful ! :)

keanu bi's little nephew can't stop calling me ! he brightens up my day more than bi does sometimes. super cute ! hahaha. Love it when he goes " AH YI ~ ! also when he pouts his lips.. hehe.. he is learning how to walk.. this boy has strong legs ~ Smart boy that learns fast !

on the side note....
There's a lot to think through.
gone through so much. thought all would go well.
but i've now 2nd 3rd 4th 5th thoughts of things!

Jiawen will tell God her prayer.
God will lead her in His way!

oh yesh !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !
(im talking about jasper tan here, not my biological dad, it's just that this daddy here doesn't allow me to call him by name! lol!)

2009-06-27T13:41:00.002+08:00

my eldest uncle - mummy big bro passed away this morning.
that's why i HATE cancer.. taking away my family members!

My heart's heavy.. but God put peace into my heart.
Mummy told me that after a month, he got approval from grandma,
and so he got baptised two days ago.. on the hospital bed? Not very sure.
Didn't expect him to leave us so fast.
but at least God took away his pain and tears and brought him home.
may he rest in peace....

2009-06-05T11:01:00.004+08:00

God has got to be my guider, my teacher.
He's the best Co-ordinator in this universe !
Im just a tiny lil me. (in coparison with the whole earth)
but he has got my life planned out from the start to the end !
And co-ordinated people that walk in, out or stay in my life.
Cooll

2009-06-02T19:22:00.005+08:00

I realise i have never shared any of my company's works here right !
okok.. since i've got nth to do except waiting for the SLOW printer..
let me share some of the latest webbies we've launched.

Waterproofing Trades Association Singapore
Engineering Portal for the Polytechnics in Singapore (end of last year)
Temasek JC Check out the Virtual Tour!
ITE College Central

One of the last few 199web projects.
I think this is really pretty: Blueimage International

Exciting upcoming would be:
Millennia Institute and National Cadet Corps!
I'm excited to see the full websites up!

ohh ~ my printing's completed ! Im going home now..
meeting early morning tomorrow.
tatas!

2009-06-02T19:16:00.003+08:00

AHHH ~ super tired today. reach office at 825 this morning.
Had lots of printing and binding to do.
because there's two tenders to submit today..
tiring seh! Lucky i got hardworking interns that are willing to help me..

I WANNA GO HOME!
but im still preparing for the 2 meetings that i have tomorrow.
busy busy busy..
i wanna sleep..

dui bu qi baobei..
can't meet you today..

and sorry darling..
im just too tired to go over today..
(just like how you are lazy to come over)

a random chat with my interns..
about how old i am. and they realise that i'm only 1 year older than them.
wei chong went like "... and you are my project supervisor!"
ya.. actually im not very old although sometimes i feel i am...

2009-05-28T21:54:00.003+08:00

im wondering.. how to get over the past.
i meant.. a past that has got almost nothing to do with me.
but i'm quite affected by it.
i brought it to myself.. i went to find out myself..
and got myself into a bad mood.
matter to not know right?

I need more confidence.. more courage.!

2009-05-06T23:50:00.005+08:00

my misses.. God knows...
my love.. God knows..
my fears.. God knows..
my worries.. God knows..

my God knows it all.
I pray repeatedly.. for your safety and health..
God protection will be upon you.

How can you be so far away for so long!
I promised that i'll not cry..
(i teared half a drop of tear... that's not crying right?)

You told me to keep myself occupied..
and here's a little confession:
i didn't miss you when i was occupied with work!

But once work ends.
i miss you badly..
QUICK COME BACK LAH!
or at least be contactable mah..
your girlfriend here is a lot better than the wild boars that you meet out there!

PS: im excited for our 999th day! :) im in the midst of preparation..

2009-05-02T23:21:00.006+08:00

Today is Baby Javier's Shower Party..
wonder where have all my relatives gone..
Reconciliation please!
It feels totally like serving in the nursery at home..
LOL. lots of toddlers and children running around..
in and out of the play house..
Janelle had so much fun. Laughs..
I had fun watching them play too !

好想念你！
i thought you wanted to call me back?
i thought i was suppose to be waiting for you.
but it's late and i gotta sleep. gotta wake for service tomorrow!
i wonder what's keeping you so busy that you got no time even for just a message.
im just not the kind of girlfriend that can wait quietly.
im just not the kind that is so understanding..
i wanna throw tantrum, scream at you.
i want you to come back!! ROAR~!
but i know it's all not within your control.. :(
Just roaring to chase away the lousy empty feeling.
will the rain wash away this feeling...

2009-05-01T15:58:00.001+08:00

HAPPY LABOUR DAY!

Just did a big da shao chu in my room!
phew. so tired now... ok, I fulfilled today's task!
to complete packing my room! and it's neat and tidy now.
I wonder how long this will last! haha! but i threw away lots of stuff...
Things that I think i won't die without..
i hope my judgment at that point of time is applicable for the rest of the days of my life..
I don't wanna regret! but im happy today.. at least i accomplished my task! :)

Gona go for a good bathe. and rest a little.. tomorrow's gona be Javier's shower party..
wonder who is going to be here.....

2009-04-30T23:32:00.002+08:00

Spent all my credits on talking to bibi already.. :(

but gona top it up again..

will do it tomorrow..

im currently sitting in The Central's Starbucks!

eating the oreo cheesecake just because i wanna sit in here.

Sounds rich.. but im unwilling actually.

suppose to come to resolve jiapei's friend's problem with the laptop.

but jiapei throw me alone here..

she's happily at her work place with her friend..

well.. at least i got a laptop to use..

Yipppppe~ it's the longgggg weekend.

Tomorrow is gona be a pack up day..

Saturday is gona be Javier's Baby shower.

Sunday gona go for service and probably go to ikea after that..

heard that there is going to be a 4b gathering next week..

wooohooo~ wonder how it is gona be like.. haha.

2009-04-26T20:49:00.003+08:00

3rd day without mr shen with me!
heard from him today.. called me before he set out for the navigation..
tralalala... a little not used to weekends without him..
but it's not lonely at all.. :) sweet love.

2009-04-25T12:05:00.002+08:00

darling bi contacted me! :)

he bought a thailand prepaid card. hehe..

To all, he is doing good.. at least for the past two days..

he is 'enjoying' the basking in the hot hot weather there.

well. i can imagine.. haha!

btw btw, i got to share this..

forget to share during cg yesterday..

God helps me in amazing..

was tasked to think of creative elements to propose to one of the tenders.

well. i haven been a very creative person.. always in the box.. :x

so it was like a very very very difficult thing to think of anything new..

so until yesterday, i was still having a hard time..

then suddenly bi bought the thailand prepaid card and contacted to let me know..

so being curious.. i went online to check out the prepaid card so that i can know the charges..

and when i hop on the website.. i was like focusing on looking out on the rates.

suddenly i felt a prompting to take note of the features of the website.

because i was on the english version of the website, i didn't catch the creative element of the website..

because of the prompting, i went to look at the thailand version of the website..

and tadah..! through that website.. a thai website that i wouldn't have chance to get in to.. i've got the idea that we can include in the proposal..! :) denise james and rena all liked that idea.

Praise God! :) although it's not original.. But we'll be able to work something out from there.

God is good! :D

2009-04-24T14:16:00.002+08:00

Janelle and Javier (taken from Joe's facebook!)

Ain't they cute? =p

2009-04-24T14:14:00.003+08:00

amazing small world..
realise that amanda's bf is in the same platoon as Bi..
and they left for thailand yesterday..
buuu ~ sad thing is Bi didn't manage to get the roaming activated..
So I can't get him at all !
I call singtel.. but well. appears like he needs authorization to activate it..
22 days without any contact with my dearest Bi..!
looking forward to their return.
Amanda and I will be there together to welcome them back! :)

2009-04-11T09:57:00.004+08:00

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We're on the straits times.
Wanna join our easter celebration?
Celebrate our living God together!
Call me! it's not too late to join in the fun!
we still having the drama staging tonight and tomorrow!

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2009-04-09T21:20:00.002+08:00

i think NS really makes me learn how to be independent!

2009-04-05T23:00:00.002+08:00

Congrats to Joe, Jess and Janelle! :)
A son, a lil brother, a lil baby!

I didn't manage to take any pictures of the little baby..
but he is cute.. everything's so small!!
the mouth especially! haha.

Played half a day with Janelle.
was duper fun and tiring!
Thank God she's a easy child to take care of.
Didn't give me any trouble.
Brought her to parkway, without her parents also no problem.
Da gu says that this is in our family..

2009-04-05T10:38:00.009+08:00

Praying for healing..
for Bi and my Uncle..
stupid dumb boy went for live firing.
don't know if he is still having fever! :(

Praying for smooth delivery of little Javier (my coming soon nephew~)
Im at home taking care of Janelle!
yupyup! they have the exact same name and Gil's kids! hehe.

2009-04-03T23:02:00.002+08:00

roary..!

2009-03-27T23:08:00.002+08:00

tomorrow im gona visit ah ma. and meet up FUNs for dinner..
sunday's gona be service and bbq..
busy weekend...
im gona rest le.. nights all..

2009-03-27T22:28:00.004+08:00

just a little of disappointment..
a little of tiredness.
i've been asking so much..
to think about it.. maybe im really not worth it..
one step at a time.
nth's ever perfect..
The greatest of all is Love and i just got to believe in that..

2009-03-14T13:20:00.002+08:00

Jiapei and I had a really FULLLLLL breakfast!
called for mac delivery at like 10plus..
waited till 12 before the delivery came!
can just what! they gave the wrong items!
we order 1 hotcake and 1 hotcake with sausage. (consist of 2 drinks and 2 hashbrown.)
what was delivered to us was
1 big breakfast, 1 hotcakes, 4 hashbrown, 1 egg macmuffin.
faint!
then we called to inform them, but they told us that we can have them all and they will deliver the hotcake with sausage.
so guess what?! jiapei and i had to finish all the food up! goodness!
ok. obviously we didn't manage to finish up our food. Thank God for abundance!
haha! but we wasted food!

2009-03-05T23:41:00.004+08:00

man.. today's a very xiong day!
didn't leave my office chair at all.
not even to the washroom.
I didn't realise it until 7plus. haha!
when i realise that I unknowingly skipped my breakfast, skipped my lunch, didn't drink any water... ok. that's how busy i was. I didn't stop a single second. Didn't even have much time to tweet.

I dun like handling lousy customers.
shall not mention names.
she almost killed my day.
but thank God im still cheerful today!

There's lots of work coming, at least for the next 1 week i'll be super packed at work..
but i wanna thank God again for the intern that is coming in on monday.
got to give her all the work i have an work full time on ncc alone!

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2009-03-05T00:02:00.004+08:00

James is eating so much apple that i'm infected too.
Craved for apple so much after work that jiapei and I went to PP to buy apples home.
HEHE! I love eating fruits so much.

stop by starhub to wait for baobei to end work. didn't do much of a catch up, but im glad i saw her smile. :) Thank God for putting the smile on her face. it's gives me comfort.
Gotta catch up with her soon.. [im happy]

Bi complains of pain in his shin. And I guess there's nth much i can do other than praying for him and asking him to go to the MO. well.. God is the healer. :) why worry.
*jiayou for your ~~SOC~~ 10km run test!

**edited 10:29AM

Bi just msged me to say that he did well for his 10km run and I thank God for that. improved by 4 mins since he ran two days ago. 50mins for 10km. :)
But now his Shin is hurting even more. both shins are in pain now. he said that he started off the run with the pain and finished it in pain. But Thank God he manage to finish the run and did it well.
Please pray for him. THANKS!

2009-03-03T18:05:00.000+08:00

weee~ Jiawen is on twitter now.
it's kinda fun ! :)

http://twitter.com/evangelynlim

2009-03-02T14:40:00.005+08:00

Needs? Worried? Stress?

Don't be too troubled.
Submit your prayer request to p-ush.blogspot.com
we'll start praying for you!

Pray until something happen!! Give it a try!

2009-02-27T17:46:00.005+08:00

staying at home to rest because im super tired.
hardly can ever sleep.
woke up in every 2 hours interval because of the cough..

this week feels short and i feel bad..!
monday and tuesday was normal work day.
wednesday i woke up in a manly voice [went to the doc, took med, took mc]
thursday i woke up with no voice [went to work, but left for home early]
friday i woke up with bad cough [had to skip work again]

so this week.. i've only worked for 2 and a half day?!
man.. you people must be thinking that im very xin fu ehh...
haha! but im not! im SICK! this is no holiday for me..
i hate being sick. i don't even know what i was doing at work on thursday.
i sent out email, and like 1 min later, i forgot what i sent out.

The doctor gave me the med for sore throat didn't give me any cough med.
so i got my sore throat cured but not the cough.
man.. im just too lazy to go get the med for cough and i just took pi pa gao at home.
i hope that's good enough.

anyway.. i changed my blog skin.....
just happen to come by this script that changes the background color. so im giving it a try.
im super lousy with my color combi, so this may work out nicely for me.. haha.

Bi is too occupied with his NS life and poor me can only stand by a side..
Bi is out at mandai today for this navigation. so im not going to hear from him..
Bi says he can't be with me.. so I am trying to take care of myself..
I am learning to be mentally stronger than Bi so that I can be there for him..

2009-02-17T12:02:00.002+08:00

man.. i need God's wisdom.
How can God co-ordinate the lives of so many people, plan for so many human.

just a few projects.. i'm losing grip already!

2009-02-13T21:56:00.002+08:00

so much of headache.. cause me to be so moody..
kept recalling those very emo time..
very very lousy times..

hais. i must have been very grumpy to my sister this morning.
but she's nice.. she still helped me.. :)
thanks jiapei.. ~

ok. tomorrow is valentines day..
i wonder whats inline for me..
tralalalala ~

2009-02-13T15:25:00.002+08:00

i am feeling really giddy now..
Despite sleeping for almost 10 hours..
i still feel the headache..
ROAR!

2009-02-12T18:48:00.003+08:00

woohoo ~ a happy 29th months with my dearest dumb boy !

on the phone last night. when the clock stricked 12..

jw: hey, it's 12 le..

jy: (very hurriedly) HAPPY 28th MONTHS!

jw: (laugh like crazy) HAPPY 29th MONTHS!

jw: (continues laughing) wanna be 1st to wish still dare to wish the wrong month.. 28th month was last month!!!!

FAINTs! sometimes.. this kinda blurness from Bi makes me laugh..

like a little boy... dumb mistakes..

but that laughter made my day.. kept me going for this whole day thinking that.. yup. it's the 29th month already and we are still doing good..

Then i came to the topic.. of making the two versions of the story become one.. LOL!

so well.. here's the story.. (you can call it my version, but that is exactly what happen!)

beginning of 2006..

spending lots of time together doing projects + exam prep at GIRL's house with the rest of FUNs on a very very regular basis.

someday.. BOY messages GIRL on her mobile phone despite sitting opposite each other in the same living room. the messages kept going till the point where everybody had to leave GIRL's house for 1st bus. (BOY is going to say that he have forgotten all these) Message on handphone and on MSN continues for the rest of the 2 months or so..

on the 18th of Mar 2006 BOY makes the 1st move to pop the question. GIRL rejects thinking that it's always better off being friends.. (GIRL's thinking was that at least there will never be a break up, and friendships continues for a longer period of time). well.. then both BOY and GIRL just happily enjoy going out together and having fun together until a stage where they became like a couple without the status..

till some day. some things fade away.. and confused BOY decides that he still has feelings for his ex.. so he left.. GIRL was badly broken down.. friends around her crused and swear at this lousy person like crazy and advices her to go for the better and available one.. but GIRL persistently hold on because feelings were strong. Although not expecting any turning point.. she was all just alone. thank God for the friends that where there for her. thereafter, BOY broke up with his girlfriend(at that point of time). on the 6th of Sept 06. Party was planned for BOY's birthday.. GIRL attended with the heart of giving up the love she had after that night. It was just a thought that she should just let go. Since it's been so long.. and with her was a very good friend that was people thought was ideal for her. for at least that friend was a nice guy that cared. well.. disturbing friends made GIRL give BOY a birthday kiss that night.. after that kiss.. GIRL broke down real bad. leaving in the guy friend's car. thinking that, yes, that kiss is a good bye kiss.

upon reaching home, BOY messages GIRL to thank her for the birthday kiss.. so things continued from there again.. constant messaging.. constant contact.. till they came to a point where it's just a missing status again.. BOY finally pops the question "will you be my girlfriend".. and GIRL says "already am"..

So who pursued who? hmmmmm.....

BI says it doesn't matter, so yeah maybe it really doesn't matter.

HAPPY 29th Months dear !

2009-02-07T23:32:00.002+08:00

instead of thinking of what to get for me..
my darling asked "what am i going to get for valentine's day"
oh crap..
1) im badly broke
2) i've got no idea what to do
3) i've got no time to do it..

MAN! somebody! help me..
help me think of something..
and make sure he gets something for me too ! =p

well baobei's birthday is over.. so super fast.. 21 years old this year already..
now i've got to think of willie's.. roars.

2009-02-03T11:00:00.002+08:00

这两年是真的难熬

will this be over soon?

2009-01-20T23:43:00.007+08:00

My ~~boy~~ man has gone in the greenery (trees, grass, + sand? + mud? and creepy insects)..
He left our main source (mobile) of contact somewhere (with his higher authority i guess).
I've lost communication with him since 7am yesterday.
But I'm not worrying..
I know where ever he is.. God is with him too.
I know what ever his is doing.. God is with him too.
I pray I pray I pray.. God will protect him, encourage him, be his counselor, be his guidance, bring the joy and strength to him and bring him back real soon!
~~boy~~ man.... i miss you!

2009-01-15T11:00:00.003+08:00

it's been so long since i last blogged.

And sometimes I really don't know what to blog about.

Ok.. let's talk about the "biggest" thing in my life now..

That's my "little" sister and her o level results.

Well.. other than english, everything seems to be ok.

And she's got the same L1R4 as me ! :)

the only sad thing is that she got D7 for her English and that means she can't get into the Early Childhood course that she desires to go for..

AHHH ~ no more nanny job for my "little" sister.

Anyway, i've to put her through into that course some day..

So the next step would be to retake english for sure..

Man.. Im flooded with "how how how how" everyday from my mum and sister.

To retake english and not study for this year.

Or to take a diploma course and retake english to see how her english results would be..

Trying to think of a solution that is best for her.

sometimes, I wish I can tell them to stop asking me and ask God. But well~

To the rest of the o level grads, you've got to make a decision for the next step now !

Remember this next step determines your career in the future so please choose something that you'd really like (and not something that your friends like, don't even think about whether you can earn lots of money or not.. Do somthing of your interest, if not.. it's gona be tough.)

2009-01-02T23:04:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all of you out there ! ! ! !
The year 2008 was a life transforming year for me..
Transitioning from a student to a working "adult".
Learning how to manage a family to bring reconciliation.
Learning how to manage work and keep good people relationship.
Learning how to be more God-like everyday.
Adjusting to serve in a ministry.
Learning how to manage time for family, my boyfriend, my church.
Ups and Downs in life.. and another year has passed.

Now that I am blogging on the 2nd day of the new year..
I have to say, my year started off well.
Although there's no glamours coutdown.
Or a WOW party to be in..
We kept the start simple. Just the both of us..
And some time with God together.. I really have to say..
I had a good rest, and my 1st day of Jan 2009 is a good one.. :)

It's gona be another exciting year ahead and I am all prepared for it..
Weeeee ~

2008-12-26T11:34:00.002+08:00

From the Pakistan Staff:

2008-12-26T11:16:00.005+08:00

Merry Christmas to EVERYBODY!!!
so sorry im one day late.

didn't have any chance to blog yesterday.

Anyway.. Christmas Eve was good.

Although i didn't manage to watch the drama, or listen to the word, or join in the caroling.

But I truly enjoyed serving..

Nursery.. the ministry to serve the future harvesters. :)

We had a "party" by feasting outside the room.

curry puffs, soon kueh, banana, sushi, etc etc.

haha.. then after service, manage to join N20 and Jieling for steamboat and Joshua's place.

Thanks Douglas for preparing the food, Thanks Joshua for the place.

Man, it feels so long since i last tonned.

anyway. that night was fun.. but i was bitten by the mosquitos.. =|

slept for 1 hour before we left for home.

cab fare was super super ex! slept another 3 hours before we had to wake for service.
looking at the late time, my sister and i took a cab again! man..

And of course, it's Christmas Day..

it's always good! :)
spent the whole day out with N20, Jieling, the new friends + my sister !

yeah, although like bi say, we didn't quite had time alone. But the more the merrier and christmas is suppose to be a merry season..

went for lunch, then Cathay for Movie. hehe..
Ip Man/eep mun..
hmm anyway case, it's a good show.
I enjoyed myself, but brunt a hole in my pocket now..
Shall control my spendings now..

2008-12-18T17:21:00.002+08:00

today is a bad bad day..

got to meet a customer at 7pm to close a project - bundle of joy.

it's suppose to be a happy and reliving thing to close a project.

but now it's not.. not when you know that scoldings are coming your way..

my pakistan freelance developer has gone offline. and i can't contact him to get him to finish up with the rest of the work. i am meeting the customer in 1 and a half hour's time and the project is not completed yet.

tell me how how how how how how!

didn't feel like coming to work, but came. don't feel like meeting the customer, but have to..

actually i do like my customer.. it's just that the project is not completed.

problem is that it seems like an easy project, but it's not.. in fact, it's a 4 digit project that is more difficult that a 5 digit project. customer have been very fustrated by the delay of the project.. and they will never understand the amount of work. sad.. i can't explain because i am not the developer. but i can see and understand the amount of work... well.. nobody to blame. just some miscommunication + lack of funds + mis management of the project...

2008-12-17T10:48:00.002+08:00

last night went home and play with piknik.. and the above is what i have come up with. Just anyhow clicked a bit.. it's so effortless to come up with a nice pic like this! haha ! love this program man. gona use it so much more often. :)

2008-12-10T00:05:00.005+08:00

opps, sorry for blogging so much. Just happens that I am suddenly free...

I was reading some blogs.. read about some relationship that i read of.. in the "ai mei" stage of a relationship.. like awwww.. so sweet. Then i read back all my past post.. like awwww.. so sweet.. like everybody says. "ai mei" is the most beautiful part of the relationship.. yes man! so true.. although it's so status-less and full of doubts.. But those were the days that were so sweeeeeeeeet. like always pretending to be just friends in front of people. but we know and we clearly know that there's a different kind of spark. When you are in a group, you always know that there is somebody looking out for you in the crowd. When you meet up together with your friends, actually all you care about is whether he is coming or not. When someone else is after you, you will want to see what is his reaction when he knows.. When you plan a birthday party for his birthday.. it's actually all just because you wanna celebrate his birthday with him.

oh yes, mine was a little different.. his birthday party was suppose to be the end of everything. every uncertainty, every tear, every pain, every "giving"... thinking back. i think there's many many that i would like to thank. so many stood by me during the bad times.. took my tears, my grumblings.. accompanied me... make me smile. I planned that party to be the last day that i am going to bring some laughter into his life.. but it became the start of it.. I always think that the birthday kiss (and the competitivity) brought us together.. Again, i have to thank so many.. that night that cared about my tears, that gave me the hugs, that gave me the chance to bring back my love.
well here is another picture we took two years ago.. on his 18th birthday..

it's just another like 3 more days to our 27th month.. came a long way, and I certainly think that there is still a much longer road to walk down together..

2008-12-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

Took leave tomorrow. Thank God for understanding boss and interns that come in in time.
I've never been sick so often and taking leave so much in my whole life. But this end of 2008 seems to be so eventful.

on my birthday I took mc because i wasn't feeling well. two days after my birthday, the sickness worsen, so took mc again.. then came asia conference.. I took a three days leave for that.. then last monday and tuesday, i was given two days mc for having fever.. (dad and mum made me stay at home, they insisted that i stay at home till the fever subside else i might get my brain overheated and might go bonkers? LOL) but thank God the fever subsisded without me having to go for a second visit to the doctor.. then tomorrow i am taking leave again for my dearest's POP..

Didn't dare to take leave because i know i've got lots of work and a dying project... But still i messaged James my boss and requested for leave Bi's POP.. And he reply was "Sure.. Must go one.. that time when i POP no girlfriend. so xian.." I know I know... my friends, especially N20 would go.. "you've got such a nice Boss" haha. yeah I do have a nice boss and a nice working environment. :) Nice interns too.. They share my workload and accompany me during lunch breaks.. thank God for that..

anyway just something to share.. being sick allows me to build up my faith for believing in the healing power of my God.. each time I pray, I know healing is on it's way.. But I remember one night, it felt so bad.. Then i decided that i should lay hands on myself. it works... almost immediately.. My prayers was totally like.. Crap. I don't even remember what i was mumbling about.. like "God please heal me, I know you can heal me, God my Healer, please heal me, you have healed my once, I know i can trust in your healing again.... and it goes on and on.." just "healer" and "healing" throughout.. But after a sleep, im fine again.. fever subsided. But of course I got to thank the people that prayed for me. :) like my bi, xenia and gil etc etc.. Well. I just got to say.. that God is really a Healing God. :)

2008-12-06T10:08:00.002+08:00

Finally im using the computer on a Saturday.
But actually i don't know what to do..
Yesterday in the office, I decided to change my blogskin while waiting for the server to be up.
So well... Hope you guys like my new blogskin. I might change it from time to time since i've got no time to update.. But only problem is that the blogskin will not have a personal touch, which i really don't like.. :( Bear with me until i've got time to do my own blogskin ok? hehehe..

2008-12-05T10:42:00.003+08:00

as TAGGED by tiff! Here's the quiz:

Pass this to your friends to know how their relationship is going on. (well im too lazy to pass)

1. What kind of boyfriend/girlfriend do you like?

- a thoughtful + fun one..?

2. How did you celebrate your 1st month?

- wah... it's two years ago! referring back to the post on 12 october 2006, he came over to my house.. =p

3. Do you feel safe with your boyfriend/girlfriend?

- yes yes...

4. When you see your bf/gf injured or sick, would you be there even if you're busy?

- that totally depends.. if he is sick and is in the camp.. what can i do..........

5. When it's your 12th month & your stead is having an affair, what would you do?

- erm... it's like going 27 months already...

6. What if you know your ex is still loving you albeit he/she is single while you're attached?

- oh, too bad.. im attached. and if there is a ex.. our story is already the PAST!

7. Are you single, having a r/s or having a crush on someone?

- I AM in a RS!

8. List out 3 love/sad songs.

- cant think of any?

9. What would you do if you and your stead quarrel?

- erm...

10. Do you wish to know if someone has a crush on you?

- it would be nice to know.. but still.. Im not available..

11. What if you're single & someone has a crush on you?

- huh? don't know how to answer to this question.

12. How many times had your heart been broken by somebody?

- can't remember.. broken heart has been healed.

13. How do you feel when you fall in love with someone?

- words can't describe this feeling..

14. If you & your stead quarrel, who'd be the one apologizing?

- the one who is in fault?

15. What would you do if your stead wants a break up?

- ask for a reason... but i doubt he ever will :)

16. Did any of your bf/gf give you a present that you liked the most?

- oh yes.. like the tigger cup, the chopsticks, the 'LOVE' bookmark, the big pinpin.. ALL ABOVE ALL is the RED NOTEBOOK! :D

17. When did you last cry for someone whom you love?

- last saturday morning..

18. How many times did you break your promise to your stead?

- if i ever did break my promise, it's unknowingly, so how would i remember?

19. Do you wish that your r/s will last long?

- yes please.

20. Did your stead kiss you in public?

- think so? don't remember...

2008-11-25T10:21:00.003+08:00

ASIA CONFERENCE was SUPER DUPER GOOD.

Although we have to wake up everyday 2 to 3 hours before the sessions to queue up.

But we've all made it ! 5 days straight.. heading to expo with so much expectancy..

Totally recharged, seeing visions and totally blown away by the messages and revelations!

Pst Kong, Pst Phil, Pst Benny Hinn(I didn't catch much though), Pst Ulf Ekman, Pst AR Bernard.

ALL the messages were super good.

even in the overflow hall, the prescence is so strong..

out of 10 sessions, i attended 7.. missed 2 and was serving in 1..

Being memerised in the church (really is the heaven on earth) for so many days.. suddenly coming back into the Marketplace.. it's indeed a big different to be put amongst the wolves.. But we are called to insulate then penetrate. I feel so much more ready now.. To shift myself from the 1st space to the 2nd space..

2008-11-13T09:59:00.002+08:00

booooo~
sick again. staying at home again...
so crappy. i hate being sick and i rather be at work..
at least im able to do something.
i've been surviving without the aircon/fan since 7am this morning.
and i still feel cold.

spitted out so much phelym.. they are so thick that it doesnt go through the net at the basin.
(ok this is disgusting)

working from home sounds cool.. but i feel very handicapped.
Because all the working files and materials that is needed are in the office!

2008-11-11T14:10:00.005+08:00

the weirdest bday ever..

my 20th birthday was spent at home.

most of the time alone..

lying on the bed. resting..

slack until 5pm before i went to the doctor.

slack at pp until 8 plus.

faints. went home and slack all the way till 11 before i decided to go to bed again.

willie came and woke me up. Thanks "noStatus". it's been long since we last chatted. Lets meet up soon. i think we have a lot more to tak about. :)

Thanks to all those who wished me. Really thank you all for remembering.

Quite a lot of people asked. My Love didn't celebrate for me!!!!

BUT, he promised me he will make it up for me..

Bi bought me a rabbit! the bigger version of what douglas foo had caught for me.

2008-11-07T12:49:00.003+08:00

you may think it's amazing.. But yeah..

As im rising up a little bit more to pray even more than before.

The devil is working in my work place.

I feel the attacks all around. This week has been bad..

almost everything gone wrong.

I really think it's time to protect this place..

We all got to be even more hardworking than the devil.

Gotta pray so much more.

2008-11-06T10:56:00.004+08:00

how how how!

Saturday is coming already.

I still haven confirm how i should breakdown my pledging months with the new amount.

totally challenged.

btw btw btw! My 1st blessing came in le..

mummy blessed me for my birthday... :)

she is giving me $$ to go shopping!!! hehehehe!

thank God man!

I believe there is more to come!!

AND AND AND!

MY DEARIE IS OUT OF THE STUPID FIELDCAMP!

Waahahaha! missed him so much. well. it's gona be friday sat and sun together with my Bi..

and monday(my birthday) is going to be with baobei..

see im a lucky girl!

God loves me.

Bi loves me.

Baobei loves me.

what more can I ask for..

2008-11-03T10:27:00.003+08:00

blink blink and the arise and build is here again..
Saturday's word is really really good and i strongly sense the breakthrough coming..

But the challenging thing is that on Saturday, just before i pledge I've got another new amount.. Wrote the amount that I've gotten weeks ago.. But am now confirming the new amount.. phew.. Arise and Build is really not just about the building man. it's totally about building lives and includes mine..

I feel the stretch in my capacity over ALL areas of life..

1) spiritually - to keep rising up and not fall back (trying really hard to guard myself)

2) financially - im really maxed out, but im keeping recording for the in and out

3) relationship - my dearest, he is in the ns, and he needs so much more emotional support that i need. therefore, i got to tone down on myself and make sure he gets the support that he needs. (just to let you know, he was the one supporting all my emotional breakdowns)

4) family - really needs some restoration, financial blessing and salvation

5) career - workload is piling, but thank God for good boss and im learning to cope well..

I feel so much like a pig. I totally missed my alarm clock this morning!
didn't go for the morning prayer meeting.

Am i keep having this thinking that I am heading to marine parade, but the location is at paya lebar. Can't get the correct location into my brain!
Im gona sleep super early tonight to make sure i wake up in time. (hope i get to the correct place tomorrow morning)

Tuning myself to be in sync with the correct frequency that i should be in..
Gotta be totally geared up for spiritual warfare now!!!

PRAY PRAY PRAY!

2008-10-28T10:46:00.007+08:00

oh no.. i forget to bring the cammy to office.. i've been hogging on my sister's camera since i dunno how long ago.. Since she's having O levels and wun have much chance to use the cam, i decided to put it to good use.

the 18th of Oct, N20 sisters decided to all wear dress to service.
Therefore.. you know SISTERS will have a photography session. what's more is that we went timbre after dinner. And there, more pictures were taken..
here are some of the pictures:

N20

Me & ESTHER!

Bi & I

Charis, Jiawen & Gillian

Charis & Jiawen

Kristy & Xenia

Moxi & Xenia

Jiawen, Sharon & Charis

Kristy, Joshua & Douglas

Jiawen, Shane & Avis

Rickson & his smash cake.

Cake into the drain~

The last picture I took before the batt went FLAT!

Then on the 25th of Oct, we went for dinner and east coast carl's jr. there's where we met edmund and the rest. :). there too was lots of pictures taken.. (PS. those pics aint taken by me..)

on the 26th of Oct, went bowling with bi and his family. well, bi being overly obsessed by his little newphew, took so many cute shots of the little boy. to speak the truth.. little hong wu aka keanu is really cute! shall post some of the pictures when i upload them. :)

He has the very smart look and he is SUPER SUPER CUTE!

on the 27th (which is yesterday) is a extraordinary day. BECAUSE IT'S a public holiday! which means, no school, no work! bibi only had to book in at 1725.. so N20 went to the ZOO!!!! Still woke up early in the morning, travelled to AMK and had breakfast there. So good to know that our brothers are having blessing even before the arise and build.. Anyway, it's so much fun and craziness. and i really love new cameras, because their battery lifes last longer. we took i think alomst 200plus shots? again, i havent taken a close look at them.. and the pictures are not taken by me too! =p LOL. all the craziness. but i really had fun. LOVE the little rabbit..! Like i said.. Bi had to book in. therefore we left earlier than the others.. and rush back to his house. had a super quick dinner.. and rushed off to pasir ris.. I left for home from pasir ris after bi went off.. well.. it's the normal routine.. was so tired that i slept throughout the trip back home.. and when i reach home i slept for the 1st two hours.. woke up at 9pm. watched tv and talk to bi for 1 and a half hours. then knock out again.. woohoo.. now im back in office ALIVE!

2008-10-15T10:00:00.002+08:00

1 full month since Bi is in NS..

I survived one month!!!!

ahh. sometimes it seems so hard..

but i think im doing good..

and i suddenly think that something is amiss in my life..

where have all my friends gone to..

other than Bi.. and CG members.. it seems like i lost everybody else..

Thank God for the CG, we are going so much more often now..

and real friendship is built up.. at least i've not miss out this part..

and this is a major part that is filling up my life now..

see example this week..

monday - charis's birthday

tuesday - prayer meeting

wednesday - bible study

thursday - one free day (going home for my family)

friday - cell group meeting

saturday - church service

sunday - one free day (probably accompany bi to pasir ris)

out of 7 days, 5 days is spent with cg mems..

i mean it's really good. and im glad i do have this group of friends around..

but what happen to the rest?! every night when i recall my days or week..

i feel like i've lost a part of life... i meant.. probably i've lost some people who were part of my life.. when i see everybody else having cliques or even just some close friends outside.. im thinking what happen to mine.. Maybe it's me... I didn't balance my life well enough..

yeah, then baobei will go.. "good that you realise it.." sigh...

2008-10-10T13:59:00.002+08:00

So long since i last blog.
Actually basically.. I've nth to blog about..

The past two days i was so tired..
The never ending amount of work to do..

Like I always share for testimony during CG, I thank God for the incoming project for my company.. but that simply means.. My workload will keep on increasing. But thank God again for the Joy that he has put in me.. That no matter how heavy my load is, no matter how stress i am, i don't flare anymore.. Because all my burdens are lifted to Him.. And He will help me through.. Like chun shu says. We are not super woman, but we have a SUPER FATHER.

Those classmates that i have in poly know that i cannot take stress well. But you know.. God is always good. I have my capcity enlarged. Finishing my task on time.. and handling everything well... no flaring, no headaches..

Thank God im getting an intern to help me soon.

Please pray that i get responsible intern man!
I believe that is going to help me lighten my job..

Arise and build is here.

And this morning, i got my amount.

This time round, it's an amount that i dun have..

But I'm gona put all my trust in God...

If that's the amount and sacrifice that i have to make.

I will do it..

2008-09-23T10:28:00.002+08:00

stealing a little time out of work to blog...
sigh.. i dunno how to describe this feeling..
When she says something funny.. should i laugh or should i cry?!
she's not doing good mentally. so what can I do ? I've prayed all night for peace and healing..
I Thank God that her appetite is improving.. But this hospital stay made her go haywire..
she doesn't remember most of the things and in fact is making up absurd stories that I dunno how to react at.. She's gona be away from home for probably 1 week or more.. it's gona feel weird again.. God please please please heal her from all the sickness..

2008-09-16T17:19:00.003+08:00

12th Sept 08 marked the 2nd Anni for Bi and i.

and on 15th of Sept 08.. Poof goes my Bi..
to tekong.. to serve the nation..
it's gona be 2 weeks without aiai! boo!
was surviving quite well yesterday even when seeing him off parting in tekong..
it's only until late night.. it became very hard to survive just to wait for his called.
total madness. I started waiting for his call at 9pm.. and the time to 930 seemed so long.
instead of 30 mins, it felt like 30 hours!
obviously he had to call his parents 1st.. and i was super sleepy by then..
so i went off to bed without waiting for his call. =x.

and it became worse today, can't call Bi as and as when I like. BLAH!
I hope I can survive this...!

woohooo~

2008-09-09T14:26:00.005+08:00

WOOHOO~ I survived every thing that came !
baby's birthday is finally over !
phew ~

i think he did enjoy the most simplest birthday I've ever planned..
Although what he sent me is suppose to be personal, but i will like to take a little bit out of the long email..

This is what Bi said:

......
...........
u know, sometimes simplicity is good.

like even thou the planning wasnt a big bang event,

but nevertheless, i still enjoy it =).

It's really good, or should I say this is one of the happiest birthday ever,

regardless of the quantity and quality of the presents,

or the venue or the activities or whatsoever,

I'm just glad that at the very least, majority of the people turned up!

Like even mel, ah ru, minfei, and even nicole! .................

and also I've got so many people gathering for me this year!

Like w253, then with n20 people and with the freaks, and my buddies like qiming and stuffs.

Its really good to see people putting in the effort to turn up and stuffs lidat,
........
...............

So everybody who played a part in the birthday dinner/gathering.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Without you, i would have failed all my plans !
thank you thank you thank you !
Thanks FUNs!!! it's was a good gathering before the guys enters NS.
Thanks JL for helping me get your buddies.
Thanks N20 & W253 for agreeing to come for the dinner (despite the budget)
Thanks for all the little wishes and gifts that you got for him.
it was really a heart warming week..
To see so much love pouring all over him, whether is it his buddies or family or funs or cg.. :)
THANK YOU GOD for answering to ALL my prayers to make this 1 week successful.

2008-08-29T15:12:00.002+08:00

wee ~ it's been long since my last crazy post..
nicole commented to say "when i go into your blog, i don't see the post 1st, i look at the tagboard 1st".

sobs! seems like it's more happening in the tagboard ehh?
haha.. problem is my life haven been very happening.. =x.
anyway.. everything has been good.
especially the 'not just a name' event last sunday..
still feel good until now..
ah ma was touched.. :)
she's surprised by the crowd.. and she's happy to go out for movie..
and that's all that matters..

it's gona be janelle's 1st birthday (i've yet to get the present)
it's gona be Bi's 20th birthday(i've yet to do anything, or get anything, totally no plans)
it's gona be Gil's xxth birthday(and im still clueless of what's suppose to be done.)
SAVE ME !

webcamming

2008-08-15T16:58:00.001+08:00

web cam is fun.. can be kinda of self entertaining.. haha!

a lil crazy.. =x..

now you understand what's a piercing headache?!

2008-08-13T17:35:00.002+08:00

it's was the 23rd month together yesterday..
=). it was pretty much a "just another day with Bi"
watched movie and had my long waited carl's junior.
haha.. I feel like a rich kid. watching movie on two consecutive days.. =x
but it was good time spent with Bi.
just one more month to our 2 years..
phew.. feels like yesterday, when you insist on asking the question(although we were already tgt).
haha.. <3. i just love this dumbest boy.

on a side note:
Bi's birthday is coming!!!!
oh no.. somebody give me some advice.
I don't know what to do..

2008-08-11T11:21:00.002+08:00

weee ~
Saturday was National day
my day was good + tiring..
went to botanical gardens with W253 and N20..
i think it was really good time spent together. =)
The captains ball was fun..
The food's good.
The weather's good..

Sunday was the service and new comers dinner.
Went for service at EXPO.
Then went Parkway for light food..
And we went for the newcomers dinner at Rolands restaurant.
SHHH! Although im no more a new comer..
but it was my 1st new comers dinner!
Lil but good time spent with my baobei for the catching up.

a little hiccup almost spoil my day.
but im glad i manage to pick myself up..
Struggled a little, but i did it!!!
Evangelyn will live for God alone..

TOTAL randomness.

2008-08-08T10:23:00.003+08:00

080808!!!
Olympics officially starts today!

actually im not that excited.
it's all just because i don't know what to blog about..

Feeling uneasy.. as the day draw nearer.. i feel so...... lost?
ROARs. So many things left uncompleted.
so what can I do to help?

Just one struggle in me..
Over the past 1 month..
I'm trying to talk to you everyday..
but I've never succeeded.
I'll try again and again..
it's so hard to discipline myself..
i guess i'm just not quite ready yet..
to step to the next level..

Please forgive me for my randomness.
i just need to rant a little.

2008-08-05T13:33:00.004+08:00

I've been lazy to blog.. But now im here...

1st Aug to 3rd Aug
Festival Of Praise was super super super good!
although the 1st night i was serving BUT i enjoyed all three nights !
I missed the 1st night sermon..
But I've got no worries.
Because Bi and I bought the sermon MP3s..
Super good deal.
We bought some books too.

on a side note:
I love serving at the nursery!!!!
really fun playing with kids.
watching them learn and grow.

It was Edmund's birthday.
so I hereby wish you a HAPPY Belated BIRTHDAY!!!
Sorry, couldn't celebrate with you in time.
but hope you enjoyed your day! :)

2008-07-29T18:17:00.002+08:00

woohoo ~ I'm all ready to help my dearest with setting up his website..
but it's gonna be work, doing website. end work, still doing website. haha..
but well. I'm just as excited as Bi is.. he is going to design and I'm gonna help him with the little experience I've got in working in a web design company.. Hope I'll be of help.. =). And he promised to design my blog skin for me.. so stay tuned to the new jiawen-.blogspot.com. hehe.. Let's hope it's gonna be sometime soon.

2008-07-24T16:30:00.007+08:00

HAPPY Be-lated Birthday to MINFEI.

FUNs! black and white.

me with my yummy food and Bi with his plain white rice.

although the black sesame ice cream taste weird..
but it was sweet. (because baobei had a share too)

see.. she's my lovely baobei! =)

Bi and Bi's Twin

random...

actually the whole main purpose of the post is to post up the pictures. =x.
very very very long never take pics le.. especially with this group of FUNs!
(more photos to come, when minfei sends me his collection)

2008-07-23T13:06:00.003+08:00

hohoho~
yesterday's gathering was good..
at least for me it was.
Just that Nicole and Carel didn't come.
I do miss them. :)

I'm still learning how to juggle all the things together.
Work + Family + Church + Friends
it's getting scary, because as your grow up..
there's really so much more to do..
It's not like they are suddenly thrown to me.
just that at different time, you experience different things..
and of cuz the responsibility just increases over time.
God please please please.. increase my capacity..
I need to learn.. learn how to take them all.
I'm a little greedy, because I want to take them all.
not a single one can be left out of life, because that's what my life is about.
no work = me will not have money!
no friends = no happy me..!
no family = no growing up jiawen..
no God = no need to talk about the above.. because there will be NO me!

22months

2008-07-14T16:37:00.001+08:00

It was 22nd Month for Bi and me on Sat..

And I got a new "friend"!! =)

2008-07-14T12:45:00.001+08:00

weekends pass real fast!!!
back to work again on monday morning..
i'm getting really used to this kind of lifestyle and i really like it.

Thank God for all things seen and unseen.
All the things that you have done for me, I'll never be able to repay.
But I'll love you more and more each day.
=). Thank you for your encouragements.. and making things right..
I will stand by my promises..

2008-07-11T14:02:00.002+08:00

So stupid!!!!
too happy yesterday.. haha. so fun.
my special-normal day! <3.

play abit too much till abit concussed liao lah !
think must be the lack of sleep. So dumb.
i took my charger, my adapter but i forgot my DS! roar!
so stupid. was thinking i'd need it today..
but roar~!!! I LEFT IT AT HOME!
total stupidness!

2008-07-06T23:07:00.002+08:00

seriously..
totally..
100%..

Don't know how to describe it.
gona have a good time tomorrow at ECP.
needa breath..
im almost suffocating..
given a choice..
i'd walk away..
totally.. AHH..
strangled..

Bored at work..

2008-07-03T18:46:00.001+08:00

bahh.. it's 640 now.. suppose to knock off at 630pm.. but im waiting for a customer to come. or rather two.. they are partners..

Have been alone in the office since 3pm.

getting boring.. Because i've got nobody to talk to..

but good thing i got the speakers working. so i'm blasting worship and praise songs.. =).

and being a little bored, I took some pictures with the web cam that boss bought before going to pakistan..

still don't know the purpose of the webcam. i mean the reason why boss bought it.. but well.. i'm using it. =x.

after sitting for so long, my back hurts!!!

I wana go shopping! go watch movie! yesterday i used my lunch time to have a quick shop.

manage to get myself a little something.. but i left it with BI! AHH !!!!

i think ah ma's not doing very good. sigh.. i dunno what's wrong.. =(

Eric's Baby

2008-07-01T10:23:00.001+08:00

CONGRATS to the SIM's Family.
Went to East Shore Hospital last night with dear's family.
Dear's 2nd sis-in-law gave birth to a lil boy.. Super cute can..!
So much smiles on their face. heh. :)
New life. It's gona be lively over there.

I'm gona visit more often.. for the little baby.. hehe. =x.

2008-06-25T09:37:00.002+08:00

A real lousy feeling..
Had fever last night..
wanted to see a doc last night. but have no idea where to get a 24hrs clinic..
so had no choice but to wait till the next morning(now)
the fever is gone.. still feeling giddy with a lil headache.
decided to take one day leave to just rest at home..
stupidly bad.
sigh.. called back to the office and sms boss and colleague..
to inform them of my leave.
super super bad.. im afraid they are gona be unhappy.
because i've taken so many days leave.
sigh...